Well, here it is

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 01:10:27 GMT

alright...so...wow nothing really has been goin on.

been bored as hell.

wow.

i had camp all week.

that was fun.

thats it.

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 23:53:24 GMT

yay i now have a sn again.

yay

woot.

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 16:06:00 GMT

wow.

yesterday was a good. day.

and thats all i am going to say.

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 15:36:55 GMT

hey there.

yes, i still DONT have a sn. and its really pissing me off.

gah.

i hate this. i miss talkin to my friends. i wish my rents had any idea how pissed i am at them right now. gah.

and wanna know what the gay thing is??? they deleated my sn cuz they found out that i hadda myspace and my rents are so stupid and thought that it was a personal ad!!! how freaking gay! and i told them why i had one, and it was the honest to god truth, i had one so that i could see my friends pics that had one. wow i am so pissed.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 21:29:35 GMT

today is my birthday.

yes it is.

and my god damn dad deleated my aol account which means that i now dont have a screen name. so thats why i havent been on.

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 23:01:28 GMT

DMB last night.

what a freaking amazing night last night was. :-D

yay.

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 22:22:05 GMT

well...

today i saw someone that i cared about do something to me that was soo mean. and i all i want from you is an appology. and a promise that you would never make me go through that again.

you have done this to me before.

and i keep comming back...sucking up to you.

you made me wait around all day for you to call your mom, and she told you that you cant go to the pool with me...but you can with someone else...i know this sounds very 2nd grade...but im trying to do this in a mature way without getttin all mean and snappy.

i just want you to STOP PULLING THIS SHIT ON ME

its sooo mean and annoying.

oh yea...by the way...you were being really mature by not lookin at me all day...and your friend kept looking at me...then you and saying something....

wow. thats all i can say.

wow.

free at least. thank god im free at last.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 02:43:45 GMT

:-D

yay i am happy again. i am completly OVER HIM.

no one has any idea how good i feel right now. i feel like the world is off my shoulders.

wow. i used to think about him soo much. everytime i would go to bed i would think of him. but i havent lately. and i havent talked about him, or to him in days. and that used to be soo hard for me.

i think i know how i got over him. i met a boy. hes really nice. but i dont like him as much as i liked that other boy. and he makes me feel really special cuz my friend talked to him and he said that he likes me, but we are taking things very slowly and thats good. i think i needed that. goin too fast isnt good. cuz all that does is lead to broken hearts. and a broken heart is a feeling that i never wanna feel again. and i know that i will have more broken hearts, but i have learned from him. i have learned to take things SLOWLY. also i have learned NOT to push things that will not happen. i should have figured out that if i push, it wont happen.

I AM SO FLIPPING HAPPY. :-D

now, dont think that i am only happy when i have a boy around, cuz i am not like that at all. i just i think needed someone else to have an interest in. someone that will get me over this hurdel.

but, i do know that i will ALWAYS have feelings for that other boy. i know that i will never get over him. and that is just how its going to be.

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 20:49:22 GMT

i found a luck penny today!! hehehe

today i am goin to the mall with liz! :-D

im so excited cuz me and her havent hanged out just the 2 of us un such a long time.

thats it.woot.

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 04:47:41 GMT

*TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey*
Name:	Caitlin
Birthday:	July 6th 1990
Birthplace:	Bronx
Current Location:	Saratoga
Eye Color:	Blue
Hair Color:	dirty blonde
Height:	5'7?
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right
Your Heritage:	irish and french canadian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	flip flops
Your Weakness:	guys with really nice eyes
Your Fears:	thunderstorms, and spiders
Your Perfect Pizza:	cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	idk yet
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	hah
Thoughts First Waking Up:	ughh
Your Best Physical Feature:	eyes
Your Bedtime:	when im tired
Your Most Missed Memory:	its a secret
Pepsi or Coke:	pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	mcdonalds
Single or Group Dates:	depends
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	ew hate coffe
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	yes
Do you Sing:	not really
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	no
Do you get Motion Sickness:	no
Do you think you are Attractive:	no
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	no
Do you like Thunderstorms:	NO
Do you play an Instrument:	guitar kinda
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yes
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	maybeee ;-)
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	yes
Ever been called a Tease:	no
Ever been Beaten up:	no
Ever Shoplifted:	no
How do you want to Die:	in my sleep
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	idk yet
What country would you most like to Visit:	idk...ireland?
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	blue or green
Favourite Hair Color:	doesnt matter
Short or Long Hair:	not too long, not too short
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	slim
Best Clothing Style:	doesnt matter, but as long as its not dirty
Number of Drugs I have taken:	...?
Number of CDs I own:	too many to count
Number of Piercings:	doesnt matter
Number of Tattoos:	idc
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	too many
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 02:23:14 GMT

:-\ im still falling for his shit.

i get excited about something, then there he goes again and it doesnt happen. but then i find some reason as to why i shouldnt hate him and that i he prob. didnt mean anything by it. and i cant control it. i always come right back to him no matter how hard i try to forget him. no matter how i hard i try to fight this feeling that i have for him, it never works and i fall all over again.

I JUST WANNA BE FREE.

i wanna be able to look at other guys and not find anything wrong with him. but no matter who i am with, they always remind me of him. i cant get him out of my head. i see him everywhere. almost everything reminds me of something that he has said to me, or that one night we had together, or just something sweet that he said to me.

im sick of it. and i cant control my feelings which is driving me crazy. now, i know that i cant control many things in my life, but because of YOU i cant control how i feel about anything. YOU make me misrible, YOU make me the happyest person, YOU control my mood.

i get so pissed at you and wish that you were dead, that i never knew you. but then i realize that i have no idea where i would be without you. you have helped me through so much that i have gone through. i could have been dead if i haddent of thought of something that you had said to me. if you haddent of said those 3 simple words, i would have been dead. gone forever.

thats why i cant ever stay mad. AND IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. >:o

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 20:47:28 GMT

why do i keep falling for him? why do i keep pushing myself for his acceptance, when i know i will never be good enough? i try so hard all for nothing. he likes her and i will just have to face the facts that me and him will never be together. that thing that we did was just a one night thing and i just need to realize this and stop falling.

you dont even realize it, but you just do these little things that make me feel special. i know i am prob. not the only one you do this to, but when you do it to me, it puts a smile on my face. when you would walk with me after class when school was still goin on that ment something, when ever i would talk to you online, every convo ment something to me.

i really wish that you could just open up to me like i do to you.

if you think you know who i am talking about, or if you think this is you, let me know.

*please dont just mention who you think it is in the comments*

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 21:05:30 GMT

ok, so yes i am updating. woot.

i went to a pool party today.

school is now OVER :-D

the one thing that i have been waiting for all year is finally here

SUMMER.

i love summer. and idk why but i have this feeling that this summer is goin to be the best summer yet.

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 03:12:12 GMT

i went to ryans for another bon fire tonight with liz and lynn :-)

it was sooo funnnn

Mon, 30 May 2005 21:36:37 GMT

liz's rents are goin to hawaii for a week and she is staying with me! hoorah!

hmm...i should be studying. but im not. oh well.

bored. very, blah. something really exciting needs to happen.

mmhmm thats about it.

Mon, 30 May 2005 21:29:27 GMT

hah, i ment to write dispatch as my current music....my bad

Sun, 29 May 2005 02:29:52 GMT

wow, i love the nights that you are just hanging out with some close friends just chillin.

soo much fun tonight. wow. it was awesomeeeeee. :-D

Thu, 19 May 2005 23:34:35 GMT

heyy alright...well...

right now, if my life, ABSOLUTLY NOTHING is happening. im not sad about anything. i am not happy about everything eaither. i hate that.

i wore fleece pants to school today. and i was really hot. cuz i didnt realize how warm it was outside before i got dressed. well,i felt kinda stupid, see as that i am was wearing fleece pants and everyone else had shorts or skirts on.

i also was wearing a sweatshirt.

i hate when my sister comes with me when i am playing night games. its soo annoying. cuz she is annoying.

i really really cant wait till i can drive. i will never be home. but the gas prices better go down cuz i dont have that kinda cash. i never have money. and when i do, i spend it. on stupid stuff. hah.

16 dayssss 16 dayssssss

16 days till there is NO MORE SCHOOL. 16 DAYS TILL I CAN SLEEP. 16 DAYS TILL I CAN WAKE UP LATER THEN MY SISTER. 16 DAYS TILL I WILL BE ON SUMMER VACATION. 16 DAYS TILL I CAN SEE MY FRIENDS AT WHAT EVER HOUR, AT WHAT EVER DAY AT WHAT EVER CERUMSTANCES. 16 DAYS TILL I HAVE NO CURFEW! 16 DAYS TILL NO HOMEWORK. (cept for that whole earth science region) AHHHHHH I CANT WAIT.

Fri, 13 May 2005 20:58:36 GMT

goin to be home. tonight. sweeeeeeeeeet.

my sis is goin out.
my rents are goin out.
I AM NOT ALLOWED OUT. >:O

how much does that suckkkkkkkkkk?!

a lot.
but maybe ryan and other people can come over.

maybe that could work.

**JUST GOT THE MOVIE DAZED AND CONFUSED :-D!!!!!!!!!!!!
**JUST GOT THE DAVE MATTHEWS CDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD :-D!!!!

today was acctully not unlucky for me. well, not yet anyways. :-D

Tue, 10 May 2005 01:39:17 GMT

did something stupid. i wish i could take it back. take it all back.

one of my friends did something stupid and i really wish that she wasnt doing what she is doing cuz its scary and its makeing me scared. especially since i really dont know what i would do without her.

Sat, 07 May 2005 05:04:52 GMT

its days like these where i just wanna curl into a ball and cry.

why am i getting so sad? im not sad about anything... so why am i feeling like this?

i have been so blah, so ehh all week. and still feelin like that.

Sat, 07 May 2005 04:48:02 GMT

fun night.

lax game tomorrow. at 9 friggin 45 in the friggin morning.

tiredd. dont you hate it when you are just so over tired that you cant fall asleep? well i am having one of those nights. yea. thats why i am not in bed right now. but i cant keep my eyes open, but when i try to go to sleep, i cant. and it sucks. a lot.

kinda feelin blah. i have had like no emotion for anything this week cept for sunday. then i showed excitment, but other then then, i didnt. i have had no mood at all. kinda freakin me out. oh well.

well, im gunna try to go to bed. good night.

Fri, 29 Apr 2005 22:40:56 GMT

friggin babysitting tonight. that sucks.

L A X TOMORROW :-D

then goin to the g-rents.

wow i really need more mins for my phone. like everyday i get a text message from the virgin mobile people reminding me that i have a balance of $0.00. it like, wow after the first ten thousand times. but i havent been able to get more cuz i CANT DRIVE and no one will take me to get more.

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 22:32:52 GMT

wow last night was sooo much friggin fun. rachellll :-D

haha and last weekend...:-D lynn and liz are my girlsssss

wow this has been a really good week. could caitlin sullivan be haveing ONE week in her WHOLE life that isnt shitty? i guess so...

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 01:11:05 GMT

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

sorry jeff. but i really think that we should just be friends.

G R E E N D A Y tomorrow. :-D