Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in Caitlin's LiveJournal:

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Friday, August 5th, 2005
9:10 pm	alright...so...wow nothing really has been goin on. been bored as hell. wow. i had camp all week. that was fun. thats it. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 1st, 2005
7:52 pm	yay i now have a sn again. yay woot. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 27th, 2005
12:05 pm	wow. yesterday was a good. day. and thats all i am going to say. (Comment on this)
Thursday, July 21st, 2005
9:34 am	hey there. yes, i still DONT have a sn. and its really pissing me off. gah. i hate this. i miss talkin to my friends. i wish my rents had any idea how pissed i am at them right now. gah. and wanna know what the gay thing is??? they deleated my sn cuz they found out that i hadda myspace and my rents are so stupid and thought that it was a personal ad!!! how freaking gay! and i told them why i had one, and it was the honest to god truth, i had one so that i could see my friends pics that had one. wow i am so pissed. Current Mood: annoyed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 6th, 2005
5:28 pm	today is my birthday. yes it is. and my god damn dad deleated my aol account which means that i now dont have a screen name. so thats why i havent been on. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 2nd, 2005
7:00 pm	DMB last night. what a freaking amazing night last night was. :-D yay. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 27th, 2005
6:18 pm	well... today i saw someone that i cared about do something to me that was soo mean. and i all i want from you is an appology. and a promise that you would never make me go through that again. you have done this to me before. and i keep comming back...sucking up to you. you made me wait around all day for you to call your mom, and she told you that you cant go to the pool with me...but you can with someone else...i know this sounds very 2nd grade...but im trying to do this in a mature way without getttin all mean and snappy. i just want you to STOP PULLING THIS SHIT ON ME its sooo mean and annoying. oh yea...by the way...you were being really mature by not lookin at me all day...and your friend kept looking at me...then you and saying something.... wow. thats all i can say. wow. Current Mood: annoyed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 23rd, 2005
10:34 pm	free at least. thank god im free at last. :-D yay i am happy again. i am completly OVER HIM. no one has any idea how good i feel right now. i feel like the world is off my shoulders. wow. i used to think about him soo much. everytime i would go to bed i would think of him. but i havent lately. and i havent talked about him, or to him in days. and that used to be soo hard for me. i think i know how i got over him. i met a boy. hes really nice. but i dont like him as much as i liked that other boy. and he makes me feel really special cuz my friend talked to him and he said that he likes me, but we are taking things very slowly and thats good. i think i needed that. goin too fast isnt good. cuz all that does is lead to broken hearts. and a broken heart is a feeling that i never wanna feel again. and i know that i will have more broken hearts, but i have learned from him. i have learned to take things SLOWLY. also i have learned NOT to push things that will not happen. i should have figured out that if i push, it wont happen. I AM SO FLIPPING HAPPY. :-D now, dont think that i am only happy when i have a boy around, cuz i am not like that at all. i just i think needed someone else to have an interest in. someone that will get me over this hurdel. but, i do know that i will ALWAYS have feelings for that other boy. i know that i will never get over him. and that is just how its going to be. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: 99 problems - jay-z (Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 22nd, 2005
4:48 pm	i found a luck penny today!! hehehe today i am goin to the mall with liz! :-D im so excited cuz me and her havent hanged out just the 2 of us un such a long time. thats it.woot. Current Mood: chipper (Comment on this)
Monday, June 20th, 2005
12:47 am	TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey Name: Caitlin Birthday: July 6th 1990 Birthplace: Bronx Current Location: Saratoga Eye Color: Blue Hair Color: dirty blonde Height: 5'7? Right Handed or Left Handed: right Your Heritage: irish and french canadian The Shoes You Wore Today: flip flops Your Weakness: guys with really nice eyes Your Fears: thunderstorms, and spiders Your Perfect Pizza: cheese Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: idk yet Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: hah Thoughts First Waking Up: ughh Your Best Physical Feature: eyes Your Bedtime: when im tired Your Most Missed Memory: its a secret Pepsi or Coke: pepsi MacDonalds or Burger King: mcdonalds Single or Group Dates: depends Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: lipton Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla Cappuccino or Coffee: ew hate coffe Do you Smoke: no Do you Swear: yes Do you Sing: not really Do you Shower Daily: yes Have you Been in Love: yes Do you want to go to College: yes Do you want to get Married: yes Do you belive in yourself: no Do you get Motion Sickness: no Do you think you are Attractive: no Are you a Health Freak: no Do you get along with your Parents: no Do you like Thunderstorms: NO Do you play an Instrument: guitar kinda In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no In the past month have you Smoked: no In the past month have you been on Drugs: no In the past month have you gone on a Date: no In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes In the past month have you been on Stage: no In the past month have you been Dumped: no In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: maybeee ;-) In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no Ever been Drunk: yes Ever been called a Tease: no Ever been Beaten up: no Ever Shoplifted: no How do you want to Die: in my sleep What do you want to be when you Grow Up: idk yet What country would you most like to Visit: idk...ireland? In a Boy/Girl.. Favourite Eye Color: blue or green Favourite Hair Color: doesnt matter Short or Long Hair: not too long, not too short Height: taller than me Weight: slim Best Clothing Style: doesnt matter, but as long as its not dirty Number of Drugs I have taken: ...? Number of CDs I own: too many to count Number of Piercings: doesnt matter Number of Tattoos: idc Number of things in my Past I Regret: too many CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS! (Comment on this)
Sunday, June 19th, 2005
10:12 pm	:-\ im still falling for his shit. i get excited about something, then there he goes again and it doesnt happen. but then i find some reason as to why i shouldnt hate him and that i he prob. didnt mean anything by it. and i cant control it. i always come right back to him no matter how hard i try to forget him. no matter how i hard i try to fight this feeling that i have for him, it never works and i fall all over again. I JUST WANNA BE FREE. i wanna be able to look at other guys and not find anything wrong with him. but no matter who i am with, they always remind me of him. i cant get him out of my head. i see him everywhere. almost everything reminds me of something that he has said to me, or that one night we had together, or just something sweet that he said to me. im sick of it. and i cant control my feelings which is driving me crazy. now, i know that i cant control many things in my life, but because of YOU i cant control how i feel about anything. YOU make me misrible, YOU make me the happyest person, YOU control my mood. i get so pissed at you and wish that you were dead, that i never knew you. but then i realize that i have no idea where i would be without you. you have helped me through so much that i have gone through. i could have been dead if i haddent of thought of something that you had said to me. if you haddent of said those 3 simple words, i would have been dead. gone forever. thats why i cant ever stay mad. AND IT DRIVES ME CRAZY. >:o Current Mood: crushed Current Music: american baby- dmb (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 18th, 2005
4:40 pm	why do i keep falling for him? why do i keep pushing myself for his acceptance, when i know i will never be good enough? i try so hard all for nothing. he likes her and i will just have to face the facts that me and him will never be together. that thing that we did was just a one night thing and i just need to realize this and stop falling. you dont even realize it, but you just do these little things that make me feel special. i know i am prob. not the only one you do this to, but when you do it to me, it puts a smile on my face. when you would walk with me after class when school was still goin on that ment something, when ever i would talk to you online, every convo ment something to me. i really wish that you could just open up to me like i do to you. if you think you know who i am talking about, or if you think this is you, let me know. *please dont just mention who you think it is in the comments* Current Mood: crushed (Comment on this)
Friday, June 17th, 2005
5:05 pm	ok, so yes i am updating. woot. i went to a pool party today. school is now OVER :-D the one thing that i have been waiting for all year is finally here SUMMER. i love summer. and idk why but i have this feeling that this summer is goin to be the best summer yet. Current Mood: content (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, June 3rd, 2005
11:09 pm	i went to ryans for another bon fire tonight with liz and lynn :-) it was sooo funnnn Current Mood: happy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 30th, 2005
5:35 pm	liz's rents are goin to hawaii for a week and she is staying with me! hoorah! hmm...i should be studying. but im not. oh well. bored. very, blah. something really exciting needs to happen. mmhmm thats about it. Current Mood: relaxed (Comment on this)
5:29 pm	hah, i ment to write dispatch as my current music....my bad (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 28th, 2005
10:26 pm	wow, i love the nights that you are just hanging out with some close friends just chillin. soo much fun tonight. wow. it was awesomeeeeee. :-D Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: hey hey - dishpatch (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 19th, 2005
7:26 pm	heyy alright...well... right now, if my life, ABSOLUTLY NOTHING is happening. im not sad about anything. i am not happy about everything eaither. i hate that. i wore fleece pants to school today. and i was really hot. cuz i didnt realize how warm it was outside before i got dressed. well,i felt kinda stupid, see as that i am was wearing fleece pants and everyone else had shorts or skirts on. i also was wearing a sweatshirt. i hate when my sister comes with me when i am playing night games. its soo annoying. cuz she is annoying. i really really cant wait till i can drive. i will never be home. but the gas prices better go down cuz i dont have that kinda cash. i never have money. and when i do, i spend it. on stupid stuff. hah. 16 dayssss 16 dayssssss 16 days till there is NO MORE SCHOOL. 16 DAYS TILL I CAN SLEEP. 16 DAYS TILL I CAN WAKE UP LATER THEN MY SISTER. 16 DAYS TILL I WILL BE ON SUMMER VACATION. 16 DAYS TILL I CAN SEE MY FRIENDS AT WHAT EVER HOUR, AT WHAT EVER DAY AT WHAT EVER CERUMSTANCES. 16 DAYS TILL I HAVE NO CURFEW! 16 DAYS TILL NO HOMEWORK. (cept for that whole earth science region) AHHHHHH I CANT WAIT. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: welcome to the jungle - guns n' roses (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 13th, 2005
4:55 pm	goin to be home. tonight. sweeeeeeeeeet. my sis is goin out. my rents are goin out. I AM NOT ALLOWED OUT. >:O how much does that suckkkkkkkkkk?! a lot. but maybe ryan and other people can come over. maybe that could work. **JUST GOT THE MOVIE DAZED AND CONFUSED :-D!!!!!!!!!!!! **JUST GOT THE DAVE MATTHEWS CDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD :-D!!!! today was acctully not unlucky for me. well, not yet anyways. :-D Current Mood: happy Current Music: otta control - 50 cent (Comment on this)
Monday, May 9th, 2005
9:37 pm	did something stupid. i wish i could take it back. take it all back. one of my friends did something stupid and i really wish that she wasnt doing what she is doing cuz its scary and its makeing me scared. especially since i really dont know what i would do without her. Current Mood: scared (Comment on this)